For the past month or so I've been struggling to wrangle some control on certain aspects of my life. My crafting bi-polar for starters! I'm pulling myself in a thousand different directions with a million ideas, that are all possibly good but not great. Maybe if I spent time polishing and perfecting just one or two I would come out with something great!
My second issue is wanting to be surround with positive things, thoughts, words, visuals, sounds and people. But since change starts from within, and I currently lack the willpower to turn off the television and put down the Girl Scout cookies, I more often than not find myself (internally because I have children) cursing at the contestants of Survivor for not playing the best game they can, and feeling sick from ingesting too many Thin Mints!
My dungeon colored blog page and 5 followers also tells me I'm doing something wrong. I made a commitment to myself when I started this to stick with it and be (at the very least) ok at it. But again I've let myself down.
This is not a wallow in self pity post (however much it looks that way) this is a must change now post!
One thing I have realized this past month is, I can't change certain aspects of my life, I need to change the whole person. I'm not going to receive positive affirmations and purity in my life if I give none out (obviously) so here goes....reinvention day!
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