People suck...and some don't. *Inspired by the lady at walmart and my dear friend Aunnie

I felt the need, nay, the responsibility to tell you why PEOPLE SUCK...and some don't.
First of all it continues to blow my mind on a daily basis to witness people being cruel and hateful toward others, complete strangers even, for no good reason (not that a good reason would justify bad behavior but random acts of meanness are daggers of poison sent out into the universe) people swearing and swerving into you intentionally in traffic just to get ahead. Or people lying, cheating and stealing their way through life...it all baffles me. It seems like for every one kind soul you come across there's 78 mean spirited, selfish dark souls who would cut your throat for twenty bucks! Wouldn't it be nice if we lived in a world where, when the person returns the purse with all it's contents untouched it DIDN'T end up on the six o'clock news because it was just the norm to do the RIGHT thing?!

The walmart lady story:
So last week I was at the local walmart shopping for my cart full of randomness (popcorn,push pins,deodorant..the usual) and as I was standing in the school supplies isle trying to locate my much needed push pins I saw an older woman with her hair plastered to her forehead from perspiration, a devastated look on her face and the walmart employee standing next to her shrugging his shoulders and giving off a reeking aura of "I should be on break right now lady." So I smile at her because I'm sure she could feel my gaze that held longer than the glancing second, and her face brightens. She says to me, "Can I ask you a question?" the walmart employee bolts in the other direction the moment the lady looks away from him, and I said "Sure you can." She asked me if I knew what dividers were! As my mind is filled with a thousand thoughts of frustration for the young male employee who was IN CHARGE of stocking the school supplies area, and couldn't tell this woman (whose heart was heavy for other reasons, obviously) where and what DIVIDERS were...I said "I do actually." I helped her find some on the next shelf and she was thrilled! She explained to me that she was shopping for school supplies for her 12 year old special needs grandson. Being a 60-something year old lady, she was a bit out of touch with the needs of school age students and was having trouble identifying the items on her large list. So I (being in no hurry, and without perishables in the cart) walked her all around the store until her cart (and hopefully her heart) was filled with everything she needed. But the devastating part of her story was the fact that this was a low income family, the grandson had many medical bills for his disease and all of his school age years he was getting government assistance and the school supplies were being provided to him, this year, however, due to BUDGET CUTS (or presidential jets) the boy was no longer eligible for school supply assistance. BROKE MY HEART. The lady didn't ask me for twenty dollars or even any of my time, she just needed help and to get through the day. So not only did the walmart employee SUCK but the government SUCKS! Sometimes people just need little things. Not everyone is looking to get ahead of you, but maybe just along side you. For God's sake we need to do something!

My friend Aunnie:
She doesn't suck, but sometimes she meets people who suck and that sucks! But lately she's helped me out a bunch and has given me many laughs and for that I wish her a suck free life from this day forward!

And to all the other non-suckers in my life (My husband, my babies,my other MANY family members,my Amber bamm,my pup dog) Thanks for being you :D

Whirlwind

OK, so I have finally started my Etsy store!! I'm really excited and apprehensive all at the same time. I'm nervous because I've been opened for 3 days and have not made a sale, but apparently this is normal *Deep Breath. Big sigh* however I'm still going to fuss about it!
No one wants to be the first person to make a purchase from a new store (who could blame um, I could be some noncommittal, nutcase with no intentions to ship) BUT I'M NOT!! So I shall just sit and wait...and hope that some dear soul living on the edge will be brave to give me a try and find I'm good, I really am!
ALSO I have finally (I think) put an end to my short story that I am satisfied with and feel good about. I have another idea that's clouding my ability to stay with this old dusty piece of work for much longer.
So there you have it! That has been my life for the past couple of weeks. I hope to find a balance somewhere soon and get in the groove! In the meantime please visit my Etsy store and have a gander!

Be Well

http://LittleLadyIrish.etsy.com

Getting there

My life thus far has been a crazy tangled, matted mess that you couldn't comb through with a rake if you had hulk arms! I recognize that this has been (almost) entirely my own self-inflicted pain and punishment, and the parts that weren't... I may or may not have handled them with grace. But I've decided to no longer look to the past. I think I may be *gasp* growing up!!! Even though I'm pretty sure we spend our entire lives trying to grow up, and be a real part of the big business, I do believe I'm at a place in my life where I can take myself seriously and hopefully be taken seriously!
I feel as though my toes are curled around the edge of my life's diving board (one that I've been clinging too, white knuckled for YEARS, hearing my mother saying "But you might Drown!") and I'm about to dive in!
I'm days away from submitting my short story to a magazine that annually publishes a compilation of horror shorts! While I'm not putting all my eggs in this basket, I do anticipate some acknowledgement (even if they say "We liked it, but...) I will be proud of myself for finally taking the first step in the direction I've been hoping to grasp at my entire life.
This day and decision has come to me at the fork of a long road paved with love and loss, pain and suffering, fighting and failing, working and winning. And now thanks to the love that surrounds me outweighing the bad, I have been able to recognize what's been there all along...I have nothing to loose and EVERYTHING to gain! So here I go, I've got on my very flattering hot pink flamingo two piece, I've kicked off the flip flops and I'm diving in!

Fashion is a BITCH

Beauty tips and secrets, hair styles and botox, trends and diets...all nauseate me!
How can we find our own beauty and have our own style if we must follow a paper doll cut out trend?!
America is considered the melting pot of the world, but I suppose the truth is once you've simmered at a warm 98 degrees you are then poured into a mold where you shall remain until monarchy or mutiny saves your soul!
Until then, if you can not afford a Coach purse for your daughter or Abercrombie t-shirt for your son, be forewarned that their fellow classmates feel it is their Divine right to torment, torture, and maybe even possibly bully them into an early grave! And while you send your K-mart dressed adolescents off to school which a lump in your throat and heavy heart, you best hope that, even though you're headed off to a job that doesn't pay you enough to afford your bills and insurance, you're wearing your Banana Republic suit and Jimmy Choo shoes, because (pathetically) teasing is not just for the playground!
How will we ever find our own niche when the first lady is on fashion watch and advertisements are choking us from every direction?!
I think culture is beautiful, heritage is beautiful and race is beautiful. We should all be free (this is the land of the FREE....right?) to express ourselves without judgement,whispers,slurs,and finger pointing so goddamn thick you could cut it with your designer cutlery!
Fashion and wardrobe should be a sacred, personal thing. And if it makes you feel good about yourself REGARDLESS of your shape or size, and it doesn't break any laws or damage the innocence of small children than you should wear what you damn well please.
As if this country doesn't have other things to worry about and bigger fish to fry than Heidi Montag's bad ideas and Lindsay Lohan's F-ing manicure!
I suppose, the latest trend is DUMMY DOWN! Look like a mannequin and think like one too!! You may think the Gettysburg Address is the location of the lady who takes pictures of babies and puts them in flower pots and that the Hindenburg is a hotel in New Jersey...but that's OK girlfriend cause you look DAMN GOOD!

Walking gets too boring when you learn how to fly...

You learned from an earlier post of mine that I suffer from a condition, Nomadic Envy! Yes, it's a very serious disease, but can be easily cured with a 17 year old RV (or VW bus), braids in your slightly unwashed hair,some beige corduroy pants and a quilt made of hemp adorned with Aztec tribal designs...oh and no mortgage.
I find my piece of solitude in wearing flip flops from the month of February to October, not agreeing to much of anything and camping during the summer. However, as of late I feel as though I'm climbing the walls with an itch I can't scratch! Maybe it's the fear of getting older (we've discussed that as well) or the fear of living a mediocre life, to land me gracefully in a coffin in about 74 average years! Now don't misunderstand, I love my family very much and appreciate my hardworking husband immensely,(I do however HATE my mortgage, paying for water and telemarketers)and I want more out of life for them as well. I have no intentions of packing up and wandering the unknown without them, but if the opportunity arose for us to be a traveling family, our bags would be packed!
Maybe my Irish heritage is to blame, or my father for allowing me to find freedom in my heart, and never putting a limit on what I could do. Whatever the reason, I desire it so... and maybe one day...who knows!

*I pity the city folk*

"Luke, I am your father!"

To know me and love me is to accept the fact that I....am a NERD! So when I saw that BING created a Top 5 sci-fi Movies of all time list, I immediately clicked to determine if I concur. I do not!

Here is the list as Bing sees fit:

#1. Star Wars (OK this is where I do agree, Star Wars is and always will be the greatest sci-fi movie of ALL time)
#2. 2001:A Space Odyssey (um, no. Yes this is a good film with it's scientific accuracy and dialog for its time. But I would not put this in the number 2 slot)
#3. E.T (OK, yes this deserves recognition. Probably more deserving of the number two spot than 2001.)
#4. A Clockwork Orange (WTF!? Here's Kubrick's twisted mind again, only this movie doesn't belong on this list. It belongs on the Top 5 cult movies of all time.)
#5. Blade Runner (Yes this is a GREAT movie but probably wouldn't make it onto my top 5...top 10 maybe)

So just for shits and giggles, I've compiled my own list (IF anyone cares :P)

#1. Star Wars (they are all number one to me, I have favorite scenes from each but they wouldn't be great without the entire collection)
#2. The Terminator
#3. Star Trek IV: The Journey Home (and now the current Star Trek is tied with this for the number three spot in my Top 5)
#4. Back To the Future
#5. The Fifth Element (My love for Bruce Willis squeezed Alien out of this slot)


Please feel free to leave your opinion or TOP 5 preferred list. If you think I'm a Dork and (think you) have a witty comment to attempt to ruffle my feathers, I've heard it all before but give it your best shot :p

Tip of the tongue

Alright, I'm entitled to one blog rant every once in a while, so today is my day.
I have pent up incredible amounts of frustration for myself lately. Writer's Digest (my favorite writing resource website) is holding their annual Popular Fiction short story competition and I can't for the life of me spit anything out!! The deadline is not until November, but I'm a first minute kind of gal!
For months I've felt as though I have the perfect story idea on the tip of my tongue, but as soon as I bust out that laptop, or pen and paper...I got nothin! I'm hiding my own creative writing from myself, I just know it's back there under lock and key in my imaginative mind. I feel like I'm the fool chasing a piece of paper in the wind, and when I bend down to pick it up, even foolish even to shout "Got Cha!", it's gone again!
Maybe I need to go for a drive...or a walk. Renting a cabin in the woods would be ideal but that's not an option. It's tough to capture that perfect idea in a jar and pop the lid on with Dora the Explorer blasting in your living room, a child coloring on the hardwood, a puppy tugging at your pant leg and laundry demanding to be washed...
I have determined that shouting profanities like a sailor will get you no where, neither will eating an entire pan of brownies!
What's a girl to do?